you should always be slightly afraid of me.
"you should always be slightly afraid of me," i said,
you slid your heels across the hallway,
a squeak of floor polish
and said, "i don't get scared of things i've got
      or things i've had."
oh shut up. you never had me.
"i swear to god -"
"what?"
(you are always so alert.)
"i said, i swear to god -"
"god's for children."
"for christ's fucking sake, you never let me -"
"what?"
"- finish!"
typical sensation of hatred choking my throat,
      everything blurs when you're near me.
      i either want to fuck you,
      or strangle you.
i know you talk shit, and i know you're an idiot.
i know you steal jokes, boyfriends, opinions;
but somehow, i forget,
somehow you catch me, and BANG -
      "oh david, come here," - and i fall down again:
are we still in the hallway?
has a hundred years gone by?
the floor feels too soft. my legs feel too heavy and i can't smell polish. i smell vinegar and that incense (you claim came) from tibet. i can smell you. i can smell you on my skin. did i fall back into your bedroom again? at first i hear you: your deep indifferent breaths of sleep. tilting my head i see your naked torso facing away from me. your skin is almost orange in the dim glow. somehow you are still beautiful.
i try to look up to the flickering light, but the ceiling is too far away.
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